FUCK XANGA.

IM DONE FOR A WHILE

mmhmm.

so thursday night. got in this HUGE HUGE fight with my dad.

about my math grade. and i've tried to tell my dad that its low because i need help in math. and i ended up yelling so much that my throat was sore friday morning. and finally i told my dad to "shut the fuck up" then i got sent to my room and i got online then. so when he found out i was online he disconnected my phone line and knocked me offline. so i got really mad. i couldn't hold it in anymore i've had enough. i had so much held inside just from everything that i really went off on him. i threw my phone at the wall broke my phone and i threw my remote to my cd player at the wall too. and told my dad i hated him and im moving out as soon as i can. but w/e.

i passed my civics exam.

last night was ok. wasn't the greatest time i've ever had. went to the core saw Thrill Of A Gunfight play. of course they were awesome best band there. but they played first which sucked because i had to stay and listen to all the other sucky bands. then kelly me alex and anthony went to burger king and played around there. then we were all going to hang out. alex,kelly,robb, and me but robb was at effin cracker barrel and we had to wait forever for him to get back at the core. and even before he got back it was time for me and kelly to leave. so kelly took me home i got home around 11:30 with a HUGE headache. so i talked to someone one AIM then went to bed around 12:30.

lovely.

not.

but yeah this weekend is going to suck probably. unless someone calls me and ask to hang out.

later loves.

<3

umm. since i only got 1 comment on my last entry.

im not going to waste my time writting that much anymore.

keep it simple.

last night, bible study then chasing victory cd release show

today sucked. bad.

past weekend...some what sucked. just friday was fun.

i have a project due in lit class..which was today..but its going to be late.

this weekend is going to be boring. im helping my mom with a yard sale.

im done typing for this entry on the count of i dont type as much as i did last time to get one comment.

later

<3

mmhmm.

loves its that time again when i update with my nonsense and obscure topics and events that happen to me. LMAO HAHAHAH.

this week we only had three days of school which wasn't that bad. but it was the longest three days in my life.

wednesday....uhhh i dont remember......

thursday....ummmm dont remember what happened during the day..OH YEAH i was on myspace all during 2nd block IMing my friend Ashley in the other class and then we got out of class and just walked the hallways. i went to the nurse for my "headache" and then to the library then to the bathroom then to the commons area to the snack machine then i got back to class like 30 minuets later. hahha. so i had to stay after school and get help too. i had to get help in my math class because im fucking failing because im not good with shapes and angles. im better with just simple forumals and stuff. i ended up going to the stupid football . which was BORING. finally got home around 7. >_<

Friday (today)........hmmm....nothing....nothing...lunch...dissed this guy's girlfriend..who i wont say the name of the guy friend...didn't do anything really today. i got like 45446856748674584564556 notes from different people. i slept in math...maybe thats part of the reason im failing math. haha..but yeah. it was really boring today. but later im going over to my loveee's house, Jasmine. and then Cayla is going too. then later Alex and Robb are picking us up to go to The Core. Which is going to be effin awesome. then of course gonna hang out up there. then going back to Jasmine's house along with Cayla..and then later Kelly is gonna come over. yay. awesome.

Saturday....good really good chance im going to the fair . which is always fun. i didn't go last year....cause we didn't have the money. but imma ride all the fast rides and play all those shitty games that take your money. ahhh how much fun. hahah.

thats all i know that im doing...Sunday...HAHHA working on a project thats due wednesday.

mmhmm.

BLAHHHH I HAVE THE BIGGEST CRUSH ON THIS BOY. ITS SOO CRAZY.

ITS LIKE IM IN 3RD GRADE WITH A CRUSH ON A BOY WHERE GIRLS JUST POINT AND GIGGLE AND PASS NOTES SAYING

"will you go out with me ?

check the box for either yes or no"

haha.

its sweet childish love.

which is always the most funnest. because no worries about getting to deep into a relationship.

well i do need to go take a shower and get ready for tonight. so im out loves.

call if you wanna meet me at the fair saturday or IM me. or something.

laterrr loves

<3

k well this weekend was crazy.

friday night went to the core and hung out there. it was kinda boring. then me and Jen walked to Kmart to buy some silly string but they didn't have any. how freaking lame is that now? then after the show Alex took me and Jen back to my house since she stayed with me that night. it was Alex and Jen front seat. Me, Robb, and some girl in the backseat. got home around 11 and Alex and Robb stayed for a little bit and messed around outside. After they left i talked to Harrison and me and Jen ended up sneaking out of the house and walking 3 miles in the drak to meet Harrison so he could go swimming with us. but he ended up getting cought. and we got home at like 2. then finally went swimming.

Saturday slept in till around noon. then me jen and my sister went swimming. after a while that afternoon we went back to her house in Alabama. Then got ready and went to The Bradley to see Another Road Home, Lakeside, Forever Changed and i forgot the rest of the bands that played. It sucked though. cause the sound was messed up and the show started an hour late almost two hours late. after we left there a bunch of us went to waffle house then ryan dropped me and jen back off at her house. and i got online and talked to josh and that didn't go good at all. ill post the conversation we had at the end of this entry.

Sunday i woke up around noon again and Jen's mom and Jen took me to Target to meet my mom and then after that me my mom and my sister went to party city and old navy then came home. and i took a long ass nap. woke up and went outside with my sister for about an hour and road bikes with her then came in and i've been online ever since just talking. i got to talk to the guy i have a crush on tonight . so that made me really happy.

im just glad i dont have school tomorrrow or tuesday. for all of Georgia school was canceled because of gas and tryign to save it and stuff idk im just glad i dont have to get up in the morning and i got four days off instead of two days.

anyways here is the convo with josh.

t4k3 my h34rt: wtf
t4k3 my h34rt: what do you wnat
t4k3 my h34rt: want
an epicXtragedy: all i did was ask if you were ok... :-.. you dont have to get mean about it or mad at me
t4k3 my h34rt: well why do you always ask if i am ok
t4k3 my h34rt: of course i am fucking ok because im not with you anymore
an epicXtragedy: wow. that hurt.
an epicXtragedy: bad.
t4k3 my h34rt: well i am tired of you asking me if i am ok
an epicXtragedy: sorry i care. i wont ever ask again. :-..
t4k3 my h34rt: wow
t4k3 my h34rt: you have never cared and never will
an epicXtragedy: umm. wrong josh. you really have no idea how much i care.
t4k3 my h34rt: bullshit
an epicXtragedy: why do you say that?
an epicXtragedy: why do you say that i dont care?
an epicXtragedy: are you just telling yourself that i dont care about you so it will make you feel better about not being together? or do you just really not wanna talk to me again or what??? cause i really do care and that hurt my feelings when you said "of course i am fucking ok because im not with you anymore"
t4k3 my h34rt: really i dont know what i want right now
an epicXtragedy: i just wished you wouldn't have said it that way. it hurt my feelings really bad and i had a shitty night. and i just really want to be at home right now. but i cant be. so i saw you were online and i wanted to talk to you then you said that and it kinda hurt my feelings. :-..
t4k3 my h34rt: well if i could take it back i would
t4k3 my h34rt: but i cant

then i got this message from him on myspace this morning.

From:   this is me with you
 
Date: Sep 25, 2005 3:04 AM                                                               
Subject: .
Body: ok well i finally figured out
dont talk to me again
because your one of the worst people
that i ever wanted to meet
and i just dont know
my life was screwed up
when we were together
becasue looking back on it
i noticed that
and dont you have to
change th drink part on this
to always drink because thats what you do
soooo
all i have to say is go away
and dont talk to me again
because i have found someone else
and i want you to get out of my life

bye and dont talk to me

im just wrote back saying something like "ok i respect your choice but i hope youre happy with what you did. and i hope who ever you are with makes you happier than anything else. and im always going to care for you. and i wish we could at least be friends but ill have to live with it if you dont ever want to talk again."

i was kinda happy when i got done reading that message though. because i realized that he's never going to be able to hurt my feelings again or break my heart.

besides i have a HUGE crush on someone already..

 
later loves <3